Love- Affection- Hurt

Love- Affection- Hurt

It’s been so long since I posted, a little too caught up. Suddenly there was lot of love and affection showered on me, it felt so nice, so much of the belongingness. The sudden show of love and affection was really overwhelming, and all incidents are so vivid infront of me, but alas, it just changed. One single message, and everything was withdrawn.

Mind was reeling, heart was crying out and all the tears just kept pouring out, so difficult to cry too these days… all would wonder what is wrong. But the pain in the heart is not seen by the one who has to see. The agony is not felt at all. Why always it has to be me? Why always the Love and affection phase is so shortlived and only hurt and anger is for longer duration? Do I deserve only this?

Amidst such thoughts, I was musing about Srimati Radharani and Krishna. How Radharani must have felt when Krishna just left Vrindavana and never returned there. How all the Gopis, kept looking forward to meet Him with all their love and affection in their heart. Really great that despite everything, they always chanted Krishna’s name with so much love and were eager to do anything and everything for Him. Ofcourse, it is not a comparision, it was the thought to show how Love placed in the right place is always merited.

I have also shown always my Love and affection, even though you have hurt me several times, even now recently too. Ofcourse will always continue to do so, but there are moments when I am also angered and feel really crushed and sad. Oh Krishna, isnt there a way to make this person understand about my true love and affection?

It would be nice and best if you could see the good and not see the bad in me, and connect through the soul. A soulful relationship!

“sarvasya chaham hridi sannivisto”
God is seated in everyone’s heart.

“ishvarah sarva-bhutanam
hrd-dese ’rjuna tishthati”

The Supreme God dwells/resides in the hearts of all beings

Krishna is all present in our hearts and I am sure He has understood where the mistake is. Waiting for Him to set it right, nice and make it beautiful and lasting for this lifetime with no more rifts.



Forgiveness in a Relationship

IMG-20150212-WA0035“Laugh and the world laughs with you, cry and you stand alone”

How true, everyone likes to be a party to joy and cheer. When you are sad, even your shadow leaves you behind.

A question that has been troubling me since a few years, is it very difficult for a person to forgive another despite their seeking an apology and asking for forgiveness? Despite the fact that the person values the relationship more to actually prove the right and wrong?

Many a time, we see the story from our view point, however good a judge you are of human character and can understand people’s mentality, one does err at some point. That is how it is with me… I have made my share of a mistake, sought apology but, my dearest friend feels, I have done much more and deserve no forgiveness. All the joyful times spent together, the care, the joy, the affection is all forgotten. Somewhere I have been judged a little wrongly I feel. This friend who knows me in and out, can understand me so well, has also made an error, which has now made the friendship, the relationship dry and has lost its charm and lusture.

Why does such a thing happen Krsna? I wanted to just ask, am I such a person, who cannot be forgiven? Are the mistakes so bad that one doesn’t want to forgive but wants to carry the anger forever? Aren’t we loosing out on the time which we could spend together sharing thoughts, caring for each other?

he krsna karuna-sindhu dina-bandho jagat-pate gopesa gopika-kanta radha-kanta namo ‘stu te

O my dear Krsna, You are the friend of the distressed and the source of creation. You are the master of the gopis and the lover of Radharani. I offer my respectful obeisances unto You.

Why is this happening to me? Why only the faults are being highlighted and the true love, affection of a friendship and the good relationship is forgotten? I have called out to you in distress….. with the hope of an answer soon.