Love- Affection- Hurt
It’s been so long since I posted, a little too caught up. Suddenly there was lot of love and affection showered on me, it felt so nice, so much of the belongingness. The sudden show of love and affection was really overwhelming, and all incidents are so vivid infront of me, but alas, it just changed. One single message, and everything was withdrawn.
Mind was reeling, heart was crying out and all the tears just kept pouring out, so difficult to cry too these days… all would wonder what is wrong. But the pain in the heart is not seen by the one who has to see. The agony is not felt at all. Why always it has to be me? Why always the Love and affection phase is so shortlived and only hurt and anger is for longer duration? Do I deserve only this?
Amidst such thoughts, I was musing about Srimati Radharani and Krishna. How Radharani must have felt when Krishna just left Vrindavana and never returned there. How all the Gopis, kept looking forward to meet Him with all their love and affection in their heart. Really great that despite everything, they always chanted Krishna’s name with so much love and were eager to do anything and everything for Him. Ofcourse, it is not a comparision, it was the thought to show how Love placed in the right place is always merited.
I have also shown always my Love and affection, even though you have hurt me several times, even now recently too. Ofcourse will always continue to do so, but there are moments when I am also angered and feel really crushed and sad. Oh Krishna, isnt there a way to make this person understand about my true love and affection?
It would be nice and best if you could see the good and not see the bad in me, and connect through the soul. A soulful relationship!
“sarvasya chaham hridi sannivisto”
God is seated in everyone’s heart.
hrd-dese ’rjuna tishthati”
The Supreme God dwells/resides in the hearts of all beings
Krishna is all present in our hearts and I am sure He has understood where the mistake is. Waiting for Him to set it right, nice and make it beautiful and lasting for this lifetime with no more rifts.