Love- Affection- Hurt

Love- Affection- Hurt

It’s been so long since I posted, a little too caught up. Suddenly there was lot of love and affection showered on me, it felt so nice, so much of the belongingness. The sudden show of love and affection was really overwhelming, and all incidents are so vivid infront of me, but alas, it just changed. One single message, and everything was withdrawn.

Mind was reeling, heart was crying out and all the tears just kept pouring out, so difficult to cry too these days… all would wonder what is wrong. But the pain in the heart is not seen by the one who has to see. The agony is not felt at all. Why always it has to be me? Why always the Love and affection phase is so shortlived and only hurt and anger is for longer duration? Do I deserve only this?

Amidst such thoughts, I was musing about Srimati Radharani and Krishna. How Radharani must have felt when Krishna just left Vrindavana and never returned there. How all the Gopis, kept looking forward to meet Him with all their love and affection in their heart. Really great that despite everything, they always chanted Krishna’s name with so much love and were eager to do anything and everything for Him. Ofcourse, it is not a comparision, it was the thought to show how Love placed in the right place is always merited.

I have also shown always my Love and affection, even though you have hurt me several times, even now recently too. Ofcourse will always continue to do so, but there are moments when I am also angered and feel really crushed and sad. Oh Krishna, isnt there a way to make this person understand about my true love and affection?

It would be nice and best if you could see the good and not see the bad in me, and connect through the soul. A soulful relationship!

“sarvasya chaham hridi sannivisto”
God is seated in everyone’s heart.

“ishvarah sarva-bhutanam
hrd-dese ’rjuna tishthati”

The Supreme God dwells/resides in the hearts of all beings

Krishna is all present in our hearts and I am sure He has understood where the mistake is. Waiting for Him to set it right, nice and make it beautiful and lasting for this lifetime with no more rifts.



Clearing Obstacles

Today is Narasimha Chaturdashi. Lord Narasimhadev is the remover of all obstacles. I sincerely bow down and pray to you O’Lord, the slayer of Demon HiranyaKashipu and protector of Child Prahlad, to clear all my obstacles and be firm and strong in my path.

Many a time we know not what we have lost until we loose it. I too have learnt my deepest lesson in the same way. This is making me humble, but the fact that a deep, true loving friendship, a very sweet and cherished relationship has gone sour has pained me a lot and brought lot of sadness in me. It is very difficult to fathom this idea and thought. I know not how the friendship can be revived to its original form, that is a miracle which you alone can perform O’Lord.

svasty astu vishvasya khalah prasidatam
dhyayantu bhutani shivam mitho dhiya
namash cha bhadram bhajatad adhokshaje
aveshyatam no matir apy ahaituki

“May there be good fortune throughout the universe, and may all envious persons be pacified. May all living entities become calm by practicing bhakti-yoga, for by accepting devotional service they will think of each other’s welfare. Therefore, let us all engage in the service of the supreme transcendence, Lord Sri Krishna, and always remain absorbed in thought of Him.” (Srimad-Bhagavatam, 5.18.9)

May this day bring joy to all and all obstacles be removed from the path to achieve success, and may that success lead us all strongly in the spiritual path. I can only offer my small prayers to this magnificient form of the Lord.

namas te narasimhaya
hiranyakashipor vakshaha

“I offer my respectful obeisances unto You, Lord Nrisimhadeva. You are the giver of pleasure to Prahlada Maharaja, and your nails cut the chest of Hiranyakashipu like a chisel cutting stone.”

Hoping that you will set right all that has gone wrong since last few years. Only you the performer of miracles can do this.